The Art of Un-becoming

I remember this time last year, leave it to Facebook's "On This Day" to put things into perspective for you. I was hurt, lost, shattered, and whatever adjective you can think of for a man down on his luck damaged spiritually. Last year was the best worst year of my life and this year has been the most uncomfortable. Read that again because the pain is different. In fact one doesn't carry pain at all it actually carries growth.

This time last year I didn't know anything about Jesus as more than a savior. This time last year I didn't love someone for their love of Christ. This time last year I didn't talk to God EVERYDAY. This time last year I didn't have a best friend that I could love with endless possibilities. This time last year I didn't have a new car. This time last year I didn't have my own business. This time last year I couldn't talk openly about my pain. This time last year I was less of a man and more of a little boy angry with the world. This time last year I had no love for myself or my craft. This time last year I had idea how to manage my money. This time last year I hit my lowest.

With all of that listed the darkness has tried to come in and throw that at me. I've allowed that list of pain to come in and twist my mind. I am NOT who I was. I know how to love now, I know how to pray now, I know how to live now, I know how to work now. I'm nowhere near where I used to be. I got a real chance to be happy, God has gifted me a chance to be truly happy and I've been ungrateful because of what I have to do.

I don't recognize myself because I had grown used to that list of what I USED to be but this here, this process, is the Art of Un-becoming. There is a you that exists beneath the past, beneath the baggage, beneath what you think about yourself, and it's beautiful. There is a you that God is showing you but you have to un-become all of the shit that hurt you and all of the gunk that clouds your light. So as always, fight on, continue being a free mind.

Our world is a Free World, one without shame, one without fear, one where being who you truly are is accepted.