The Best Worst Year of My Life

Good morning everyone. Every morning of this year I have woken up nervous. I have found myself broken and scared for the inevitable change that is life itself. This year alone I have been beaten until black and blue emotionally. I began a chase towards destiny with who I believed to be the one, I ran after what I thought was true, and I got burned. I have been through hell to find some type of heaven only to realize that the same heaven I fight for is not here on Earth.

I lost my wife this year and after the divorce found love to only lose it. I lost my car this year. I lost my faith this year. I lost hope this year. I lost my sanity this year. I almost lost my mother this year. And just when I thought that this was it, just when I had nothing left to my name, He gave me something that I wasn't ready for. God gave me a chance at peace, He grew inside me a desire to truly be free, and with that desire the courage to finally tell my story.

So here I am...

If you're reading this, you are NOT alone. You are beautiful, imperfectly perfect, and the world will never understand who you are. But guess what? That's okay! Walk with me, listen to my stories, and you'll see that in a world so full of darkness, you have a friend.

This has been the BEST WORST year of my life. Even though I lost all of that, even with my back against the wall, I find myself a citizen of the FREE WORLD. A world where being who you are is accepted, where shame does not exist, and where fear does not follow you around. I am on the edge of an ending to a chapter that has been going on for way too long and I am finally able to close it.