Emptiness

We all have a want, a need to fill a space where only God belongs. We fill it with work, late drunken nights, sex, violence, and the list goes on and on. We inherently want to feel complete. That's where I find myself today. There's a space, a gap in my chest that can't be filled by natural solutions, and yet I always run to the natural solutions.

My solutions to this problem always revolve around a relationship; this is my kryptonite. No one ever wants to feel alone, abandoned, and left out. As a free mind finally accepting who I am, I have noticed that this is yet another mountain that needs to be climbed head on. Have you ever considered accepting your loneliness? Have you ever tried remaining lonely and seeing where it takes you?

The normal reaction to this is a text to an old friend, an invitation to a bar, a late night conversation that leads to a situation that seems like a repeat of previous events so why? Why continue to do what has always been done? Why not do what you haven't done?

We run from the monsters in our closets instead of opening up the closet door to shed light on them. We fill our voids with entertainment instead of purpose. We bridge our gaps with peer influence instead of logic. We water down our own frequencies to match the rest of the community because the opposite doesn't yield instant results. What's worse is when we've done this and lay our heads down to sleep, we wake up the next morning with thoughts of getting our lives together finally. Meanwhile the problem persists.

There's a calling on your life. There's a purpose for your soul. This requires that you face these problems head on. Emptiness isn't a disease, it's a symptom. Your soul wants to be free from the shackles that we constantly put on it.

So take that hole in your heart, fill it with love, grace, mercy, and allow the process to show you what being free means. Remember: the soul knows how to fix itself, all we have to do is silence the mind.