My Humanity

It's so easy as a Christian to believe that you're supposed to be perfect. It's easy to see emotions hitting you hard is a failure to your beliefs. I've been feeling here in the last couple of days. It stings, I assumed that the healing process would be easier. I believe that God allows these emotions over and over to see if you'll trust Him with them. There are so many raw emotions in my soul, but my brother and my sisters I won't let them destroy US.

It's okay to feel. It's okay to grieve. I think that's what's wrong. We become new in Christ and think that we should be the perfect human beings when it's the opposite. In fact once you become one it's okay not to be okay. Your soul needs to be connected to the source in order to heal. It's a scary place to be in. You're vulnerable and trying to not make temporary decisions and get lost all over again. I'm barely making it through it but listen to what I'm saying, I AM making it THROUGH.

Someone I loved left me for someone else and is having a kid for that person. It makes me question myself, it makes me think that something is wrong with me. God is creating this new me that I don't recognize because I've been living in a cage. I actually like someone that I wouldn't be settling for. I'm chasing after dreams and making accomplishments that I thought was NEVER possible for me. There are so many emotions going on at once, but I have a choice.

Logic or Emotions

I guess what I'm saying is there's nothing wrong with being human because that's what makes us Christians. We are the example of what broken people are supposed to be: strong in spirit because of Christ. I'm hurting today, but I thank God for the opportunity. We get many of those you know? Many chances to be better and to rise to the occasion. It just takes a different type of strength. I am one step closer to a better me by realizing this and I hope that you are too.