Face The Waves

God spoke to me about my pain. Now that I am settled, He told me that it's time. After everything that has happened I never realized that for the last month I've been running from facing the emotions. My phone is on airplane mode and I now have two days. This is the beginning.

Whoever is reading this, listen, sex won't solve this, alcohol won't solve this, tattoos won't solve this, the only way to fix this is with God and facing the emotions. It's a process among many other things but why do what you are used to doing? I am uncomfortable and I understand that growth comes when we are uncomfortable as long as we choose to grow. I don't know what is going to happen but I know that I am strong.

Whatever it is that you are dealing with just remember that God trusts you with this struggle. Think about that. Out of all the people in our world, He chose you to get through this because He knows that you are capable of making it. That makes you a champion. That makes you a winner. That makes you you're own hero.

Someone I loved hurt me. She burned me and in the process hurt people close to me. I became a monster and thought that something was wrong with me. To add insult to injury, that person left. She moved on with someone else and is now having a baby with that someone. 3 years down the drain. 3 years of planning a life with this individual and now I get to watch her have this life with someone else.

There is a pain that you are carrying around that no one else can solve except God. There is a hurt that can only be healed by God but faith is a muscle. You have to exercise that muscle and you have to believe that it will get stronger in time. You have to be willing to face the waves. They're going to hit you hard, but when you stand for something you won't fall for anything.

I am not okay...but I will be. I am hurting, my strength is low, but God will renew my strength. Face your demons, face the waves of emotions, and I promise on the other side of this lives one thing: GREATNESS.