Sometimes, I Look Back.

Hello Free World,

I hope this year has been kinder to you so far. I hope that you are looking to the next day with love and good energy. If not, I hope this blog post bring your peace because I'm waiting for the bad too. Everyday has been a struggle, yes the six days of this year has already been a struggle. It's so easy to remember the years that have passed by the pain that I have endured. In fact, it's easy to replay those hurtful moments than to live in this new moment. It's an uphill battle, EVERY DAY.

Last year was such a rollercoaster of chaos and dysfunction but I noticed that in between it all was some form of growth. There was always this little glimmer of sun in every storm and I found myself pushing on to the next day. A New Year brings so much with it. It brings hope, joy, anxiety, fear, it just brings so much. So much could happen and instead of looking forward, sometimes I look back. I used to think I looked back to get a little reference but then I realized that it wasn't for reference it was for safety. Imagine that, I look to the past for safety because I find fear in the future, but my present is right here.

We know this: depression is fear of the past and anxiety is fear of the future. The past is a point of reference but to relive those moments takes it too far. The future isn't promised but it is okay to be hopeful. The present, yes, it could always be better but that's why you're here in this moment, to make it better. I survived, I have survived for such a long time, and I've always wanted more. Life seems to be happening all around me and somehow I'm on the outskirts because I'm looking back and I'm looking forward while minutes are passing by in front of me.

So here is my challenge for you this week: Don't look back, don't look forward, but instead look in front of you.

There is power in the current energy you possess. There is healing in this moment that you are breathing in. There is abundance that God is trying to give you right now. Don't let up on what you have been pushed to want. There is a pull in your heart towards a dream, a vision, and a purpose in THIS moment so don't miss it.

Keep your head up, be encouraged, and know that you are loved. You are a member of the Free World: a world without shame, without fear, a world where being who YOU are is expected. Be patient with yourself because everything is a process. Remember life is a marathon not a sprint. You'll make it through this week!

**Oh yeah! The plug: Don't forget to subscribe to my website for all updates on everything that I'm doing including my blog!**