Balance Takes Time

Hi Beautiful One,

Goodbye to the weeks Monday Motivation and cheers to this post on a Wednesday Wisdom. I've been dropping the ball lately. I can get it in some areas and others I fall short. Isn't that crazy? You'll be on a roll but still falling short. It goes through my mind so often, what I have fallen short in. It starts with that thought you know? Just a snowflake that turns into a snowball rolling down the hill of my imagination turning into a massive shit fest of self loathing. It's wild!

I allowed myself to be broken down to the bare bones. A space was created where I got a chance to look in myself and just be honest. I haven't been feeling this too much lately. I haven't been feeling a lot of things. I think my focus has been on the results and not the journey itself. Results...of course I want to skip to the end where there's a million followers, a 6 pack, and a job in the industry. Of course I would love nothing better than to wake up and the credit card debt is gone and this website is getting more traffic. There are a lot of things I would love to wake up to.

It's easy to focus on what you don't have. Even easy to think you don't have enough. I think that sometimes (notice that I said sometimes!). When it comes, those thoughts, but then I look at the two calendars in my room. One for my workout regimen and the other for my social brand. I remember when I wanted to get here. Here to this play where I get off track but get right back on the horse to ride again. Here, where I begged God to show me the way to. Here, where I thought back then that I could never get here.

That's the thing, everything is balance and achieving balance takes time. Balance isn't a "once you get it it's your forever" lifestyle, balance is a moment to moment endeavor. Balance is taking that thought that would normally take you captive and taking it captive. Balance is falling into bad habits and recognizing it. Balance is seeing why your angry instead of being angry. Balance is not about right and wrong, balance is about inner peace insight of outer turmoil.

That's your challenge this week: find inner peace while you stare down outer turmoil. Remind yourself that where you are now is where you wish you would be a year ago. Be honest with yourself and allow yourself to be uncomfortable enough to grow.

Keep your head up, be encouraged, and know that you are loved. You are a member of the Free World: a world without shame, without fear, a world where being who YOU are is expected. Be patient with yourself because everything is a process. Remember life is a marathon not a sprint. You'll make it through this week!