Getting In The Groove

Hi Beautiful One,

For the last few days, scratch that, for the last two weeks I haven't really been able to sleep. My anxiety is something else with everything that has gone on. It's strange, I have a systematic approach to everything so when I develop a way to calm down I try to stick to it. Isn't that funny? I mean it's as if I forget every time that we are constantly changing beings. What worked for me yesterday may not work for me today. I think I like the idea of just being okay for longer than a few days.

I'm in a bit of a tough spot, but I have been in worse places. This time of quarantine is working wonders for me because I'm already an introvert. It's like a vacation for me, but every system that I put in place for my social norms went berserk. I never realized how much energy I put into society. It's crazy! I wondered why I would get home and just not care about the art projects I wanted to work on. This quarantine is built with a purpose. Don't overlook this time to be on your own.

I have neglected so much of myself to only see it NOW. We believe that the world is in chaos but have we looked inside ourselves? Have you taken the time out to just breathe, reflect, and think? The world has a way of derailing who we are as people. We forget that at the center of us all is love. We pretend to be ourselves when our true selves suffer. We get into this groove of ignoring our intuition and disregarding what drives us forward in spirit. Isn't that wild? I had developed a pattern of behavior based on the world we live in instead of the God that I serve. I had let go of peace and CHOSE the chaos, the wavering chaos of the outside world, and because of that who I am became fragile.

Now, in no way am I saying that you should stay away from people when the world settles itself. In no way am I saying cut off everyone close to you. What I am saying is pay attention to what you're feeling in this time of isolation. If you feel off then I guarantee you there is something you have been too busy to acknowledge. There's a feeling that keeps you up at night. There's a past mistake that haunts you. There's a person who wrong you that you haven't forgiven.

This is my challenge for you this week: FACE IT. Get back in the groove by simply facing whatever keeps you up at night. Forgive who wrong you. Hell, forgive yourself. Set a new pace for yourself that is guided by love, joy, peace, long-suffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.

This is your chance to do something you have never done.

Keep your head up, be encouraged, and know that you are loved. You are a member of the Free World: a world without shame, without fear, a world where being who YOU are is expected. Be patient with yourself because everything is a process. Remember life is a marathon not a sprint. You'll make it through this week!